Living on the Edge !

In the year 2025 ; I spent 125+ hours in the swimming pool. Water became my reset.
Each stroke released the weight I couldn’t carry.
Each breath reminded me: I am still alive.
I faced sickness, viruses, dehydration — and returned anyway.

The final virus of 2025 found me in the closing days of the year.
As temperatures dropped, the water carried what it often does — unseen challenges, even when it appears clean.
I met one of the final virus of the year 2025.

I move forward, not untouched, but strengthened.

Now, I recover.
My body adapts, learns, and grows stronger.
Immunity is being built — quietly, patiently, effectively.

The year's been physically and emotionally demanding:
Managing my mother’s knee surgery and hospitalization......

Quit Job  by the end of Aug 2025.

Startups don’t pause — and neither do dreamers.
Even on Christmas Day, I showed up for an interview.

I’m still waiting.
No offer letter. No certainty. Just silence.

Just postponed a final interview which i had today to next week due to Infection.

The edge tests my patience.
The edge tests my faith.

But I will not bend into doubt.
I will not break into fear.

Four days left in the year — and I believe in endings that turn into beginnings. 
A lot can happen in 4 Days.
Something is aligning.
And when it arrives, it will know exactly why I waited.

I walked away from three C-level and 2 Co-founder roles that asked me to trade salary for equity. 
I cant afford to work without salary anymore.

Early this morning, the bank stood at my door — a reminder of pending Home Loan EMIs and uncertain days.
It shook me. I won’t deny that.

But I do not want to give up — and I will not.
I have already survived days heavier than this.
Days that asked more of me than comfort ever could.

So I choose resolve over fear.
No giving up.
No stepping back.
Only forward — carrying my strength with me, stronger than ever.

Unlike most people, my career was not smooth. I navigated it without a coach for 20 years — through twists, hard lessons, and uncomfortable growth. I saw mentorship come with conditions and kindness carry expectations. That taught me a vital truth: exclusion is sometimes safer than inclusion that costs your dignity.

From Sales to Marketing P&L.
From Marketing P&L to Marketing Analytics.
From Marketing Analytics Delivery to AI Delivery for Marketing.

From AI Delivery for Marketing to AI adoption and Presales to GTM, Program management, Digital Transformation, Financial Modeling, and Startup Fundraising.

Finally AI Start Ups.

Every new role brought a new twist — and I met it by learning relentlessly. I spent long days mastering what I didn’t know. I failed multiple times. There hasn’t been a single day without learning and growth.

Learning after learning. No shortcuts. No stagnation.
None of these roles was accidental.
This is a career value chain — forged through experience, resilience, and choice.

I realised Iam my own savior.

Iam Rani Mehra - The Queen !

I lost 4 kgs in 4 months, but stayed consistent with fitness.
Fertility affected by age and medications for three months.
Living on the edge — and still standing.
Still moving.
Still becoming.

Goals for 2026.

I may not yet know my next title or role. That uncertainty does not weaken me. I will move forward with openness, accept what comes with dignity, and give my best wherever I land.

Whatever I step into next — fundraising, AI delivery, strategy, marketing, or business development — I will step in whole, grounded, and unbroken contributing to my career value chain.

In 2026, I claim financial stability through a strong fixed salary. I will invest that stability back into myself — mastering high-level coding through rigorous institutes — so I can return to AI presales and delivery by the end of 2026 stronger, sharper, and future-ready.

I also want to give JLPT 5  Exam in the year 2026.

My journey is unconventional — and it is mine.

With every twist, every risk, and every uncertain turn, I keep moving forward.
My career advances not in spite of who I am, but because I had the courage to choose my own path.

I am building a career value chain — forged through lived experience, resilience, and courage.
And I am building it with intention.

“Come to the edge,” Jesus said.
“We can’t, we’re afraid!” they responded.
“Come to the edge,” Jesus said.
“We can’t, we will fall!” they responded.
“Come to the edge,” Jesus said.
And so they came.
And Jesus pushed them.
And they flew.

Wishing you all a very Happy New Year 2026.