Embracing the Outcast !

Have you ever been labeled as an OUTCAST ?
Have you ever experienced being AN UNDETERRED ?

Today I'd like to share my experiences !

Between 2018 March and Jan 2022 - I was labeled as an OUTCAST !

But i was UNDETERRED !

I was DETERMINED ! I didn't want to be an OUTSIDER within my OWN SELF !

My story is very similar to JONATHAN ! I could relate this event with the story written by Richard Bach. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jonathan_Livingston_Seagull

There was a seagull by name Jonathan who unlike the rest of the flock was not interested in the day-to-day squabbles over food and sex, instead he spent his time experimenting with FLIGHT.
The higher he flies, the rest of the flock disapprove his behavior. According to the rest of the flock – one should be content with food and sex.

The leader of the Flock said : Stay on the same branch and be happy with what you have !

A shift was experienced with my interactions with society ; I was ignored by the society.

I was labeled as an OUTCAST between 2018 March and 2022 January.

My Sense of Justice did not line up with the IDEALS of the system which believed in the tradition of Food and Sex.

We human beings are SOCIAL CREATURES ! The last thing we want is to AVOID being called as an OUTCAST ; So in order to avoid being called as an OUTCAST - We do whatever it takes to FIT IT !

I said NO to FIT IN : I WAS LABELED AS AN OUTCAST IN MARCH 2018.

My Unconscious Mind said NO and Conscious Mind said YES !

The Society was forcing me to SUPRESS my Unconscious Instincts and PRETEND leading to TOXIC POSITIVITY !

I DENIED.... I WAS WEIRED ON PURPOSE !

I SAID NO !

When a NEGATIVE NUMBER is multiplied with a POSITIVE NUMBER - The resulting number is ALWAYS NEGATIVE !

When you go to the seaside you see gulls always squabbling over a single French fry or a bread crust, JUST THINK, 'How they squabble over nothing!'

Have you seen people fighting like the gulls in Jonathan's flock : if they only got out of their narrow mindsets they would realize what riches awaited them.

Jonathan believed that there was a higher purpose to life than eating, sex and fighting. Eventually Jonathan's failure to adhere to the monotonous and limited tradition of a materialistic life leads to conflict with his flock and he is cast out of the gull society, just like how I was cast out of the materialistic group.

In the Hallway walking nobody says "Hi" to me !
I turned out to be A REBEL on REVENGE MODE !
I felt HELPLESS at the mercy of INJUSTICE ;
I tried to apply my OWN MORAL CODE !

The struggle continues from 2018 March through 2021 October !

I received an unexpected message somewhere between June 2021 and Oct 2021 from someone I FALSELY ACCUSED ! I was surprised about the LEVEL OF COMPASSION that person had for me in the face of FALSE ACCUSATIONS !

The Message was - CHOICE LIES WITHIN.

This led me to experience TAT-TVAM-ASI !

I recollected the image TAT-TVAM-ASI which i saw in Sabarimala Temple when i was 8 Year Old !

Soon after that i went for A SETTLEMENT !

Many people buy into the thought that COMPASSION is merely providing blanket to the naked or feeding the hungry ! Such a support can only provide short term relief from MATERIAL SUFFERING.

Nowadays many people engage in what could be termed as IMAGE - CENTRIC COMPASSION, where their COMPASSIONS are motivated by a desire to enhance their societal standing. The posting of such a Daya-Compassion on social media serves as a demonstration of their PERCEIVED GREATNESS.

True Compassion involves helping someone undergo a TRANSFORMATIVE JOURNEY OF EVOLUTION towards LONG LASTING PROSPERITY !

Have you ever heard of that PUNJABI SONG - Ik Onkar...

There is a line - A Hungry Person's Hunger Doesn't Go !

I was curious why someone who i falsely accused display such a LEVEL OF COMPASSION towards me ! WHAT I DISCOVERED - Compassion was the foundation of SIKHISM - Rather all of Punjab !

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daya_(Sikhism)

Highest form of Proposition = Daya-Compassion !

I have come to realise the MAGIC of NEVER QUITE FIT IN !

For me - The person who was COMPASSIONATE with me in the face of FALSE ACCUSATIONS is the DIVINE !

IMAGINATION is what differentiates MAN from ANIMAL !

LETS IMAGINE !

A SEA-GULL quality and character still exists in HUMAN BEINGS in the form of LOWER-SELF.

Animals engage in AGGRESIVE BEHAVIORS like harming and hurting each other although not driven by the purpose of hurting each other but rather by ANIMALISTIC INSTINCTS.

One of the reasons why a HIGHER SELF cannot make friends with LOWER SELF ?

Instances where a LOWER SELF resorts to offensive language like Tony Middle Class in Public can be forgiven. Career Damage and Set backs can still be forgiven. However IMAGINE there is a potential risk of displaying undesirable animalistic behavior during the mating process akin to a SEA-GULL FROM LOWER SELF is deemed unacceptable because WE HAVE TO BE COMPASSIONATE WITH OUR SELF FIRST.

I rather be a VIRGIN !

The NO that i accepted was EQUIVALENT to COMPASSION FOR SELF !

I was UNCONSCIOUSLY compassionate with MY SELF !