The internal conflict continues !

The conversation was weighing too heavy and i had no other option other than documenting it here !

Unconscious Mind : You LIER ; you said you are too BUSY to Dance and you stopped practicing dance ; for what ? Who are you trying to IMPRESS ?

Conscious Mind : You dont know people in this world use the word BUSY to measure your WORTHINESS ! If i tell people that i had enough time to DANCE and SING ; i would be considered OBSOLETE and USELESS and currently i dont even have a JOB IN HAND ! Although iam putting in a lot of efforts in Job Hunt ; people would consider me as USELESS if i tell them i have time to DANCE and SING !

The world urges us on this way - HUSTLE !

Unconscious Mind : So you decided to use that word BUSY as a BADGE OF HONOR ? What are you trying to HIDE ? WHO ARE YOU TRYING TO IMPRESS ?

Conscious Mind : There is nothing to HIDE ! Its taking time to get into RIGHT JOB after a CAREER BREAK - It is not as easy as i taught !

Unconscious Mind : The word BUSY will not make you IMPORTANT and WORTHY !
Are you WORTH more than your SCHEDULE ?

Unconscious Mind : Dont FAKE ! Society has GLORIFIED BUSY-NESS ! You have to be busy with Job ; Marriage ; Children ; Promotion and the LIES goes on !

Are you feeling PRESSURED TO BE BUSY ?

Conscious Mind : Yes i dont need to spend more than 2 - 4 hours a day on Job-Hunt ? Iam pressured to be BUSY ! It is DAUNTING ! Iam afraid to tell people I have time to DANCE ! I will be considered USELESS and OBSOLETE by the society !

Unconscious Mind : SELF-WORTH is not derived from the TO-DO LIST ! Your BUSY-NESS until Nov 2021 to complete your Performing Arts exams has made you feel ACCOMPLISHED ; However BUSY-NESS and TO-DO list cannot measure your SELF-WORTH !

You as a SELF is more valuable than your SCHEDULE ! Stop glorifying BUSYNESS !

You as a SELF is more valuable than your ACCOMPLISHMENTS !

Start CHANGING from DOING to BEING !

Conscious Mind : How ?

Unconscious Mind : A clear cut STRATEGY for JOB-HUNT ! Dont hate yourself for your 1.5 months failure in Job Search ! You just started searching for a job only in Mid - Feb 2022 ! Change the JOB SEARCH APPROACH !

That does not mean you stop DANCING and FAKE it to people that you are BUSY !

By stopping DANCE you cant get a JOB FASTER ; You will only get MORE TENSED - THINKING AND THINKING !

Every body knows that - You cant spend 24 hours in JOB-HUNTING !

Even the DARKEST NIGHT is followed by DAWN and every CLOUD has a SILVER LINING !

Is there a message for your FOLLOWERS !

Conscious Mind : To my followers !

It is a PRIVILEGE to have you as a VISITOR on my Blog ! I dont want to LIE claiming that IAM BUSY job hunting ! Along with Job-Hunting i have enough time to DANCE AND LISTEN TO MUSIC !

I stopped dancing ; but I ended up WRITING MORE and LISTENING TO MUSIC MORE THAN EVER !

I plan to continue to practice DANCE starting tomorrow as too much listening will damage my ear drum and I dont want my LAPTOP to get damaged because of CONTINUOUS WRITING 24/7.